the puzzle called life

       Its a lazy saturday evening..n am sitting on my couch n lettin my thoughts unwind..I just saw a movie n its stirring my mind abt wt i was always curious abt...
       So lemme start off by tellin u a bit abt d movie...it tells d story of a troubled tween .he has everythin he needs n is enjoyin his lyf..but wt he doesnt realise is wt his purpose is..
       dats how i sumtyms feel..i mean..am i doin wt i ought to do? or shud i b doin wt i really wanna do?..now dat we'r on d topic of  'wanting',,lemme ask myself..'wt do i really want?' 'wt do i wanna do wid ma lyf? Wenevr i draw up dis topic n decide dat its tym to decide..! i almost always put it away instantly..
       N den i tell maself dat i shud go wid d flow n let d tym n circumstances decide wts best 4 me..N dats wt i exactly did..Engineering huh? i got in too..only 2 b disappointed further..d clg lyf is not even close 2 wt u grew up imagining..n d collegues r still geeks,d sort who'd nva miss a class..
No am not exactly d break out rebel type either..or am i now? i dunno..i wish i cud just clear up all dis clutter n let myself breathe..n just start to appreciate d little things in lyf...

       My thoughts wud keep bugging me..but i'v decided 2 take it slow..i still hav lot of stuff 2figure out in lyf.